I find dating apps sad. They break my heart.
I don’t know why I’ve been thinking about them recently. Perhaps its going through my mind in the context of the world around me which, regardless of what I’m doing or where I’m directing my life, I have to some extent be aware of.
One time I remember sitting at this cafe and there was a woman across from me who clearly appeared to be using an app, swiping and swiping over and over. Her body language just seemed like that’s what she was doing. I don’t know of many other interactions or functions that are performed on mobile smartphones where you would repeatedly swipe like that, except if it were a dating app.
She was sitting there by herself. I don’t think there was anyone else there at the time except me, sitting across from her.
She swiped for several minutes in a kind of frenzy, then just stopped and sat there kind of motionless. I guess she hadn’t found any game. Maybe she had already fucked them all or given them head and wasn’t interested in hooking up with any of them, or whatever.
The way the woman seemed to me seemed artificial. Artificial like I think of real estate. Artificial like I think of the McMansions of rich people. All this veneer and no depth. All this stuff but no meaning, no soul.
Its funny, because I once visited the page of one of the preeminent dating apps and I distinctly remember a marketing picture of this woman and this man in somewhere like Paris or London. Living the high life. Inspiring place. That kind of thing.
But it seems to me like that is compensation for the actual emptiness of what the app is. Using a mobile device to meet people seems so incredibly empty. Even more empty is throwing oneself away on someone who is using it to get laid for free.
Often when I’m out I see these women with this kind of look. I think they have some kind of subconscious guilt and feelings of low self-esteem for allowing themselves to be so thoroughly used and left empty. For having opened themselves at the deepest levels to people who only used them and then ditched them.
I can’t even imagine the stupid shit that people have done in their lives but I’m sure there’s an extensive amount of it. Its happened a few times that I was somewhere and there was a woman and there also happened to be some loser, piece-of-crap-type guy there and when he saw her he made a comment to her in a way that implied he had previously fucked her. But then the way she acted – with this avoidance and also what seemed like shame, it just seemed really sad and sickening to me.
Its sad, heartbreaking, and disgusting. It seems like the bottom line of mobile dating apps is just a harrowing kind of emptiness.
I wonder why people can’t just fucking talk to one another? Why they can’t just speak to each other and say things. Say anything. Say “Excuse me, but you seem very interesting to me and I was wondering if I could talk with you.” People never do that. I don’t think males ever, ever do that with females because of feminism having drilled it into people that that is abuse.
So males don’t talk to or approach females. But females don’t seem to talk to nor approach males. But then people use these apps.
Its a free world and I accept that anyone can do anything they want. That is what freedom means and I respect it, I have to respect it.
But I also feel very empty. I cannot imagine ever using a mobile dating app, nor ever, ever wanting to be with anyone who ever has.
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