I recalculated my placement on the Global Fat Scale again as I’ve continued to lose weight and as of yesterday reached a weight that is less than when I was 16, which is the age when I reached my full adult height.
I feel fine. I actually like not being as hungry as I used to be. I don’t need to scarf down a lot of food to satisfy a heavy appetite. I’m happy to just have mostly little, light yet very nutritious and healthy snacks and usually one or two more main meals per day.
So according to my weight I now place on the Global Fat Scale as most like a female in my age group in Nepal, which is the third lowest country in the scale.
Maybe I would be happier living in a place like Nepal. It might be nice to radically change things and live a different way. Maybe I should continue my computer science studies a little while longer however so that I would have a good skill to potentially earn money working on my own or working remotely in Nepal.
If I could get programming or administration gigs and lived in Nepal and didn’t require a lot of income, that would be excellent. I really only want to have the basics I need to survive and be able to spend my life in quality time connected as deeply as possible.
There are a lot of things I cannot change about the world. I cannot change people being evil. I cannot change society from being sick and unjust. I cannot stop persecution and abuse.
But I can practice wisdom and self-discipline.
I feel as if I’ve transcended this body already. Not just this body, but bodies in general. I inhabit a body now and may or may not later, but it isn’t important anymore to me. If this body perishes then it does. I do not need to cling to it nor any body any more. I know my home, I recognize the light. The light guides me and I follow.
If they persecute this body and choose to inflict harm upon it, I can choose another life if I want, or not. I am not this body. Who I really am cannot be harmed by any material object.
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