Something really odd

For the past few weeks I’ve been going through my closets and occasionally trying on pairs of slacks. I don’t wear slacks too often actually so they are not a high-priority wardrobe item.

Last year I went to this high-end blue-jean store which I really loved and got a lot of advice about sizing and fit of jeans. It turns out that I was wearing slacks that were way too big for me.

So anyhow lately I’ve gone back into my wardrobe with this new knowlege and tried on slacks I have and realized they were way too large. I noticed this with only a couple that I had. Today I decided to go through the rest in my closet and find out how off everything was. It turns out that almost everything was too large.

I know I may have made the sizing mistake but honestly when I bought the different slacks I have I know I must have tried them and made sure they fit. But today all the ones I tried were vastly larger.

So now I’m starting to wonder if there’s another factor here. I think there must be. I mean fabric can stretch to some degree, but all the slacks I tried today were huge and there’s no way I would have considered them a close fit even before.

I think I’ve shrunk in size. I’ve written about the no refined carbs diet that I try my best to follow. I’ve had periods where I got away from it, like when I was on this energy bar kick which I wrote about and which mostly ended up a big disappointment.

I’m back again to my pretty strict diet and really I love it. In addition to brown rice, quinoa, amaranth, and oatmeal, there’s one other grain-type food that is really helping me stay on this diet: Essene bread. Esssene bread is made from sprouted grains. One popular brand is called “Manna Bread” and honestly it tastes like manna to me. Its so freakin’ pure and wholesome. There’s something about the flavor of the sprouted grains which are baked at ultra-low temps that is so delicious.

My favorite is to have snacks of essene bread along with some halawi dates which are less sweet than the more popular medjool dates which are almost sickeningly sweet. Essene bread is so filling that it makes an excellent snack. After eating some of it one really feels nourished and satisfied, unlike some other foods people eat when they try to avoid refined carbs. Its really important to have this full, nourished feeling to maintain the diet.

Here is a link again to the list which kind of started it all for me:

List of refined processed carbohydrates (to avoid or limit)

I love this list! Really though, no one should need this list because everything on it is obvious. None of this food would be considered part of a sattvic or yogic diet. But I like the fact that its elucidated and listed at length. I shows how when one’s diet becomes pure there just all this yucky stuff that one bypasses. No wonder eating a pure, sattvic diet makes one so healthy.

Today I was having a mango after being at the gym and as I was taking the first few blissful bites I thought about how important it is to retrain the self to really love eating. This seems contradictory to what most would naturally think about enjoyment and eating. The popular belief is that when one eats all of these supposedly good-tasting things, like things on the list in the link, that that is enjoyment.

But it is not enjoyment! It really is not. To follow the sattvic diet is to really, really love food to such a high degree that one is eager and willing to sacrifice for the bliss of savoring that one bite which is almost epiphanic.

The popular belief is that eating a sattvic diet is about not enjoying things but its sooo so much the opposite. Its about loving each bite so much that one experiences a bliss which is transcendental and profoundly healing and nourishing.

I feel sad when I think that many will go through life and never really know the bliss and love of taste that is transcendent.

I’ve been writing about my own psychology lately and its kind of funny how there are parallels here with eating and nourishment but its like the opposite for me, as if everything is inverse.

We are not enjoying the Earth and it is suffering because we are not enjoying fully everything. People do all these things like have factory farms and inflict vast amounts of suffering on other beings in this big production and… what is the result? Only sickness and more suffering.

Humans have a sickness of taste. They have forgotten the sacred taste. I wonder. Perhaps something is incorporated into the DNA of humans to make them do this. Perhaps there’s some kind of war occurring which is not being spoken of.

Anyhow, I’m hungry again and ready for another piece of essene bread. I can’t wait to go shopping and buy new slacks.