Life

A few weeks ago I was seeing a physician for a regular check-up and the discussion came up about tapering my hormone dose. He said that since I now look feminine I can cut back on hormones.

I felt insulted by that. I am not just my appearance. And I never started taking hormones for the sake of appearance.

Am I wrong for this? Should I have cared about my appearance? Perhaps I’m unusual among transsexuals in this regard. Perhaps I’m unusual among all people. Perhaps it is wrong to not care about one’s appearance.

But when I started it was not why I wanted to take hormones. It still is not.

If I taper my dose down it is for valid medical and physiologic reasons. But, again, perhaps appearance is a more valid medical and physiologic reason. Is it?

That said, there are people in the world who truly appreciate and admire me for being the way I am, which is a chick with a dick and not a guy with boobs.

By the way, that unusual-looking orange syringe in the above photo was not one I used but one that I found inside my car when I recovered it after it had been stolen.

The few larger-diameter ones are vanishing point syringes which the clinic gave me because sometimes the people at the pharmacy are tightwads and actually didn’t give me enough to match my injectable prescription.

The photo is of all the used syringes in the sharps container which I emptied them all from and spread out to take the photo before dropping it off at the pharmacy.