Progress with skin

Today for the first time I noticed that the condition of my skin improved. I have been concerned for weeks because my face was not looking as healthy as it should and I’ve been wondering if all the physiologic stress and abuse I’m experiencing here is damaging me.

But today at least preliminarily it seems that I am going to recover, that I was not permanently damaged, at least as badly as I was hoping I wasn’t. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I’ve for the most part stopped bicycling. How sick that stopping bicycling is actually improving my health.

The sickness here continues and I’m sure will just keep going. There’s no hope for this disgusting place and the deep betrayal against life that takes place here every day. I struggle and fight to maintain what little I can. All else has collapsed but I fight for my health, for my body. People can destroy the rest of my life but I will fight with all my energy for my health.

How extremely sad it is here. When I am out I look around and see so many sick bodies. Its sad that true authority does not correspond with wordly authority, that people occupy positions which, according the the level of their maintenance of their own bodies, they are unsuited for. How can anything good come from a world where this occurs?

How can a society allow itself to go on like this, with so much hypocrisy? How can there not be an accounting for, an atonement for the horrible wrongs which destroy people’s health? And still, unbelievably, the lies go on. The abuse continues. Its like a scene from a horror film only far worse.

Right now there are people all over the world pissed off at their governments. Now in Brazil hundreds of thousands of people are protesting in the streets. Things are out of control. What is happening is the consequence of the negligence and irresponsibility of those with authority. The things manifesting now are only symptoms of things which are deeply ingrained and have developed over long periods of time. Even if the symptoms are addressed the deeply ingrained, long-term problems will remain and get worse.

As I wrote in a previous post, why not seek liberation? Look at the ensnarement. All these different ways to get trapped for lifetimes in cycles of attachment from which it can be very difficult to extricate oneself.

But the voices are luring people in the wrong direction. Greed, ignorance, selfishness, even pure treachery are at work taking things down, destroying human spirit. Its so sad how in the past decades the grandeur of the human spirit has been flattened. I guess everyone now should be in a fight for what they can save of that grandeur because it is quickly diminishing.

Don’t expect there to be support when trying to do so. Expect to be lonely, to stand against the grain, to be smeared and misspoken of. Expect to be the object of bigotry and intolerance as the inverted, twisted “values” dominate, and death is called life and life is called death.