It hurts!

The way I’m supposed to live is not this way. There’s a bin in the kitchen where I put food scraps and other, non-toxic waste. There are flys – I affectionately call them ietsy (pron. “ee-tsi”) flies – that live in there and I don’t want to hurt them. Tonight I took the polish of my toenails and I couldn’t allow myself to throw the cotton ball with the residue of the polish remover on it in there because it would hurt the ietsies.

It also feels so wrong to “throw out the garbage”. It is just so wrong.

I feel like people should help me. That people should want to help me. I actually feel kind of hurt that no one is helping me. Does that make sense? Because I know that I’m good and that if there was a place for my garbage it would mean living in a healthy community, connected to Earth and living respectfully and conscientiously. It kind of breaks my heart that this is not the way it is now. With all the resources that are being taken from our poor Earth – more than ever before in mind-bogglingly vast amounts – why are we not proportionately that much the better? I mean, if our improvement as beings was proportional to how much we take from Earth in terms of resources we should all be way beyond enlightened.

But we’re not and it hurts.

I keep writing in different posts about the problems with the way the future for America being planned and implemented is the plan of strip-America. That term comes from strip-malls. But I see not only strip-malls around me but its like everything is becoming or has become strip-: strip-agriculture is cruddy mass-agriculture which depletes Earth. It is monoculture one mind-bogglingly vast scales which hurts Earth and fights against nature. It must be supported by all these things which fight against what is healthy and balanced. I do not support this model.

Healthy agriculture to me would be like what I saw in Germany where there are fields surrounding the towns and even areas where people can freely wander and pick things like tree fruits and berries, all of which are undoubtedly organic and natural.

Not just agriculture is wrong in this way, so is “healthcare”. I put quotes around it because I seriously question whether it really is about health and about caring. Some of it is. But much of it is designed around models which are broken and wrong, which go against nature in major ways, not the least of which are the utterly gruesome torture of living beings which is done in the name of research. Think of the pharmaceutical industry and its greed and the broken models that search for new drugs as high, profit-making priorities over and against the model of being natural, healthy, and balanced because one is living in harmony with self and with nature.

Then there are the outrageous amounts of money that people in strip-healthcare, particularly doctors, make. I think that its time to burn down the medical schools and start over. Start over with a new understanding and appreciation of what it means to help people, to study healing, and to transmit knowledge.

Things are just so off track. Even the justice system is like a strip-justice system because the courts are really not what they were initially intended to be. Many people do not have access to the legal system other than at very low levels. It has become a kind of privileged thing for the elite while those below have very limited or no access. That is not the way its supposed to be. Also, the way some types of cases such as consumer protection are forced to go through outrageously expensive litigation shows how broken the system is. Also, there are serious criminals who it costs a fortune to convict and sentence because of petty challenges which only cost vast amounts of money and resources for the most trivial reasons.

Higher-education is totally broken. It has gone beyond strip-education. Education should be free and accessible to all. Institutions of higher education have become rabid, for-profit companies that operate like fast-food franchises and are bent on profit while real education languishes and things like classics are rarely taught. Many public institutions have become way too crusty and lost vision and drive as tenured professors sit back and get crusty and collect their salaries.

And of course when it comes to the environment, there is strip-mining including things like mountaintop removal which are ecological disasters. Every human mouth requires many, many acres of dedicated resources throughout its life in order to be filled. Earth is already four times – four times! – her capacity to carry humans comfortably and the situation is headed towards disaster yet politicians and others seem to think that we can just infinitely keep building strip malls and make the strip-agriculture fields that much bigger to keep things going.

But we have already gone too far and we should be rushing back, not recklessly going even farther out, wasting more, and disregarding the basic wisdom that we, as humans, are born with and should know in our hearts about respecting life and living with full integrity and nobility.